Running last week was not enjoyable for me. I was experiencing conflict in relationships as well as battling a mild cold. As I ran, I really felt like I was just going through the motions. My heart was not in it. I wanted to run away from the outcome of my choices and from the little things that life was throwing at me. As I ran, God showed me where my mistakes had been with people and situations. I repented, and as the week progressed, He led me step by step through my responsibilities in the matter. I can not control the outcome and no longer feel like I want to run.
I had an amazing weekend at a retreat with awesome women. We all experienced wonderful, personal breakthrough and built relationships. It was just what I needed! As I came home to my welcoming family, some of the hard realities of life immediately needed to be addressed again, including a parent in the hospital. When I woke up this morning, I was thinking about all the things that were going on at one time in our lives and the feeling of overwhelm was kickin’ in.
As I headed out for my run, I felt again, like I wanted to just run away from all of it. I was even questioning a lot of things about my wonderful weekend. I began to cry out to God for answers and these verses come into my spirit:
Ephesians 6:10 , Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
I had begun to feel fearful about situations and circumstances, which led to feeling vulnerable. Hearing that verse in my spirit immediately brought me back to the reality that God is in control and Satan is the father of lies. He was trying to get me to question things and situations and make them something they are not. If he can get us to questions things, he can create fear and doubt. He did it to Eve and he is still doing it to us. The second verse was:
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.
As I grow in faith and get closer to the lover of my soul, I recognize the enemies traps faster. As I break any thoughts or agreements I have with those lies, I can then come back into agreement with God’s peace for our lives. When I finished my run today, there was no thought of running away, just thoughts of peace as I felt myself running into the arms of my Savior.